I remember..

I remember moving away from Cleveland. I remember running into a tunnel wall with my bike. I remember when I met my cousin the day she was born. I remember graduating from high school. I remember moving away to college. I remember wishing I was back home. I remember the first time I fell in love. I remember the first time I realized the importance of love. I remember singing christmas carols with my family. I remember the first christmas without my dad. I remember the friends who were there for me when I needed them. I remember buying my first comptuer. I remember deciding that writing was a way to clear my head. I remember song lyrics that map out my life. I remember how to get just about anywhere by bike path in Dublin. I remember deciding to transfer to Jerome. I remember renting my first apartment. I remember signing my life away to canoe before I was 18. I remember getting stuck in a tree in a canoe. I remember riding my first roller coaster. I remember the first time I tasted alcohol. I remember losing friends. I remember the first time I appreciated going to church. I remember passing out in church from the incense. I remember spending hours on end watching my brother play baseball. I remember taking a trip to Arizona. I remember my frist time on an airplane. I remember worrying the plane wasn't going to make it up. I remember getting into the car crash in West Virginia. I remember hiking with my roommate cause we were bored. I remember regreting that we had to make it all the way down once we got to "the summit." I remember wishing I could erase memories. I remember realizing that no memory is worthy of being erased. I remember noticing when my relationship with my mom changed when I moved out. I remember being scared of leaving everything I had learned as normal. I remember finding it disgusting that people would puke in a dryer. I remember finding out a lot of gross things about other people at college. I remember deciding that I wanted to write for a living. I remember thinking there was no way I could write for a living. I remember giving up when I shouldn't have. I remember mixing up my tennis swing and my softball swing. I remember riding in a car with my friends for the first time. I remember not being allowed to drive anyone for six months. I remember getting my drivers liscence. I remember driving to school in the pitch black before everyone arrived. I remember not liking coffee. I remember deciding that coffee is better than sleep in some cases. I remember being better at spanish when I was tired. I remember not doing things because I was scared. I remember thinking that there's no point in being anything other than who you are. I remember feeling sorry for people who put on a show. I remember driving at night in the summer with the windows down. I remember sitting on court street watching people go by. I remember thinking how rare it is to live in a town where noone really knows where they're going and everyone is trying to get there. I remember slipping and falling on the ice. I remember liking that there was someone there to catch me. I remember feeling weak. I remember feeling independent. I remember feeling like nothing could stop me. I remember feeling old for my age. I remember growing up too fast. I remember wishing logic could silence sadness. I remember wishing all that mattered was heart. I remember what it feels like when your heart and your head don't agree. I remember wishing time would stop in its tracks. I remember how it feels to feel music pulse through you on a warm day. I remember the way the sun feels on the skin. I remember feeling sand beneath my toes. I remember leaving the beach and wishing I could stay forever. I remember looking at the stars and feeling small. I remember the hope that comes with staring off into the horizon knowing there is more than this out there. I remember the empowerment of good friends and family. I remember loving without fear of losing. I remember losing. I remember putting everything on the line for a chance. I remember hating change. I remember realizing that change is how we grow. I remember feeling sad when good friends move on. I remember the moment I realized that no one can be any one place forever. I remember realizing college is a transition, and only that. I remember thinking I could never get as close to my college friends as I did to the people in my home town. I remember wanting to go to a small school. I remember saying I would never go to OU. I remember not understanding what others thought. I remember wishing I could speak like I write. I remember when I decided I could figure anything out if I just put it on paper. I remember wanting to share my thoughts with others. I remember being scared of the complete honesty that comes out in my writing. I remember wondering if the people I know realize that this is what goes on in my head. I remember wondering what goes on in everyone else's head. I remember when I started to appreciate the value of music. I remember realizing that music and poetry and language all go hand in hand. I remember when I wrote a poem I actually felt had meaning. I remember taking the time to stop and think. I remember being overloaded with the stress of life and forgeting to look at everything in perspective. I remember playing basketball in the summer with my dad. I remember hiting the tennis ball against the garage wall. I remember playing ghost in the graveyard. I remember slip and slide. I remember boomerball. I remember big barbie day. I remember my first visit to OU. I remember being intimidated by the college environment when I visited my brother at Dayton. I remember when I realized my cousins are like my sisters. I remember dreaming. I remember wishing I could go back asleep only to return to a good dream. I remember reading for fun. I remember browsing in a book store for hours. I remember taking pride in myself and my work. I remember taking sculpture and realizing it wasn't for me. I remember feeling sick. I remember being lonely. I remember having the house to myself and feeling comfort in silence. I remember waking up in the middle of the night scared because of new sounds. I remember not being able to sleep because my thoughts are more important.